Terrified of next step in life.
I have just moved to a new city and I am terrified! I am scared I won't find a job! I'm scared I will never get a grip on my life! My mother helped me move out here and she leaves Thursday and I'm terrified!!! I really want to freak out! I've never done something like this before! And to top it all off! Last weekend I stayed at my cousin's and did more with his roommate than intended. I now feel like an easy s*** who doesn't think all the way through. We didn't have s** or anything but it was pretty intense for me... I am scared that guys only want me for my looks (which I never thought I'd say). And now I'm back in contact with this NAVY guy who I really really like and it kills me that we can't even try a relationship because we are never in the same place at the same time! I just really need someone here to tell me it's all right and I can stop worrying! I worry so much I have constant migraines. I am absolutely terrified! I feel a void growing between my mother and myself that I don't really know if I can fix. IT's so strange! For half of this trip we fought and I don't want us to fight! I really don't! I know it's the stress with moving and having her baby girl be going off on her own but I just wish I had a more stable life at the moment!