sometimes i feel so depressed that i
sometimes i feel so depressed that i feel like ending my life and sometimes happy. whenever i feel depressed i wanna get drunk on whisky just to get over with this depression but im scared, i rarely drink.
i dont even know my direction of life anymore, i dont have any dreams, directions i feel that i need someone to give me a direction. i cant make up my own mind, i watch tv shows and movies and then i kind of live my life by the way of the characters in the movies/tv shows. its like im trying to impersonate them trying to be like them. why cant i just live my own life without trying to be someone else?
All i do everyday is wake up, go to school , turn on my computer and sit in front of it for the rest of the day. school is ending this week and my exams are around the corner and honestly speaking i cant get myself to study for my exams, im just too lazy to even open my book. im kind of afraid to think about what my life would be in the future, what kind of life i would have without a proper education? im turning 18 this year im not going to say my location or name to conceal my identity.