Where are you?
I want to experience that heart throbbing moment with my lover at least once. But even though I'm with him that moment, it never feels like it should feel. I feel nothing towards him. Shouldn't love be heart pounding and make one feel happy? I feel like a horrible lover, to have weird expectations but I just can't fall in love with him. No matter how much I search in him, I can't find a reason to stay with him. And the more I evaluate myself, the more I feel like....maybe this isn't it. The spark is gone.
He's a great guy and I feel like trash that I can't love him in that romantic way. I'm sorry.