I hate my life
I absolutely hate my life. I just turned 20 about a week and a half ago and my life is going nowhere. I have been depressed since I was 15 years old and it keeps getting worse. I got medication for it but it just makes it worse so I put on a smile and act like I am alright.
I have never had to worry about food or money at all. My grandparents and parents are pretty well set but I think that has made it worse. I wish that I could have something to explain why I hate my life.
My girlfriend broke up with me earlier this year for another guy but I still think about her every single day which just makes things worse for me.
I wish I could just move away from this life. Not tell anyone where I am going and leave it all behind to start over again. If I could do that I think I might finally be happy.
I hate myself and I hate my life. I have only been truly happy once in my life and that was with me ex. I don't know if I will ever be happy again.