I have feelings for a co-worker. Her husband works at the same place.
I have to confess something.
I am a married man. I have been so for 11 years. I am in my upper 30s.
Six years ago I started to work in a different division of the company I work for. That is when I saw her. She was (is) very beautiful. The first thing I thought when I saw her is, "I need to be careful around her."
Over the years I have been able to keep this crush of into the back of my mind. She never caught on. I was safe. Then one day I was looking at her and she caught me. For five years I was undercover, but, now I am exposed. But she looked back. Then I would catch her looking back. There were days I would see her stare at me in a reflection in plexiglass. Now my crush is getting stronger.
This glance/glance back thing has been going on for about two years. In that time I added a son to my family (5 kids in all). She got engaged to her boyfriend of 5 or six years, married, and had a son, also.
This game continued. Finally she began to withdraw. She deleted me off her Facebook and for awhile tried to avoid me. But it always seems to come back to the glance/glance back game. My feelings for her are so strong. I think of her more than my wife.
In the last few months, her husband (who also works in the same building) quit being so nice to me. He won't even look at me. I think she may have told him about what has been going on.
My feelings for her are still very strong.
I wish I would have met you, TM, before we met our spouses. I would rather be with you than anybody.