I'm still having s** with my ex 'cause it's awesome, much better than when we were together.
and i still love him, i can't help it, after all those years together. i can feel that he loves me, too. but we can't get back together, it is impossible in this condition we're both now in. is it wrong?
i'd also like to become pregnant. not for him staying with me, i just feel it's time and he is a good "genetic material".