I hate my body. I hate the rolls and the wobbly bits. I'm not exactly fat, but in my eyes I'm not skinny either. I just despise myself every time I look in the mirror and constantly compare myself to others.
Tonight as the first time I made myself throw up. I have been trying for ages, but tonight I was successful. I have been starving Myself as well. Whenever I eat, I get this horrible pain in my stomach. If I feel full up, I feel fat, so I can't finish a meal. And then if I do feel full up, think that I need t punish myself. So I cut myself, which has been happening for about 2 months.
The logical part of me says that I have a problem and should get help. But I can never bring myself to speak up. I just think that everyone would tell me that I'm beng self centred and attention seeking.
Sorry about the ramble, I just needed to get that off my chest.