I'm almost 22 and I'm a virgin. I'm the only one of my friends who is a virgin. I'm pretty sure I'm going to die a virgin.
When I was younger and more idealistic, I had opportunities but I was saving myself. I wanted my first time to be special. I wanted to be in love.
When I realized my standards were unrealistic, I loosened them, but since then I have not had any opportunities. No one wants me.
Now when I see s** in movies or on TV, it makes me uncomfortable. I know that will never happen to me, and it makes me want to cry when I see it. I can't watch movies I used to love because I know there are s** scenes in them.
I wish I could just be asexual and not care anymore.