Its terrifying because I knew what I was doing
Last night I went out with some friends from school. Had a good time but got way too drunk. When I got home instead of going to bed, I went out and found a prostitute. I will spare the deplorable details but cocaine was involved and now I fear for my health. While I am seeing a therapist for bipolar depression I am afraid that even with the medication things are getting worse because I drink.
I need to stop but don't know how. Things in my life have been getting better every day and then for me to do something like this... I've tried AA but most of the people in the groups I can't begin to relate to, but I fear that I will if I continue on this path. Is there anyone out there that has made the transition to an alcohol free life? Or knows of any support groups for post college age people?
I'm ashamed to admit that this is not the first time this has happened, there is no excuse and I have only myself to blame for my actions. The point being, I don't want to act this way anymore, ever. Like I said, recently, my life has taken on a positive trend and to lose all that I have worked for over something as prevailing as a glass of beer would be tragic, if not one of the stupidest, most harmful things I could do to myself.