Which ones worse?
I'm such a moron that both these things happened to me...
First, I have a huge crush on my instructor. BUT, of course, I'll never say anything because 1- it's against school policy & 2- I'm 100% sure he'd turn me down. (He's a happily married father of two so it be super wrong & I'd feel super guilty). It's just so hard to accept it's never going to happen & I have no chance.
Then last year in the cafeteria, I saw this guy who was absolutely gorgeous & I couldn't stop thinking about him. But, as the time passed, I forgot what he looked like & improvised with my imagination... In fact, I daydreamed & gave him his own personality too. But, when I saw him again I realized that he barely looks/acts as I imagined. I can't believe that I've made myself fall in love with someone so impossible because he doesn't even exist!
So tell me, which is worse: not being able to be with someone because they are taken/have absolutely no interest whatsoever in you OR because they don't really exist?