I'm a young woman, and supposedly that
I'm a young woman, and supposedly that means I should be interested in romance/being swept off my feet/marriage/committment, but the truth is that I don't want any of those things. The thought of marriage makes me sick, and actually, so does the idea of committment. Being tied down to one person, always having to take into account somebody else's feelings and desires, having to structure my entire life around what somebody else wants. I don't want to be one of those people who gives up everything they want for their significant other. I want to have a life before I even think of settling down.
The problem is that I also can't stop thinking about s**. Lately, every man I see, I think about f******. Many of them are friends of mine or guys from my work, and what's scary is that many of them are married. I'm not attracted to married men specifically, it just happens that alot the guys I AM attracted to are married. Or they're already in committed relationships. It's driving me crazy. A lot of them are also quite a bit older than me, and probably wouldn't be interested even if they were single because of the age difference between us.
I just want someone trustworthy and who I feel comfortable with to f***, without having to worry about any of the other, relationshipy stuff. Is that so much to ask?