I don't love my wife anymore
Maybe it says it all that I have put this confession into relationships rather than love but the fact is that after 30 years we have grown apart and now I have met a woman who was a girlfriend when I was 16 and began a relationship with her.
She's funny, incredibly sexy and just loves me to bits. So much so that her long term partner of 20 years in a millionaire and she is willing to walk away from him any time I ask. She has kept track of me for nearly 40 years, through her first marraige, through a terrible time she had after that collapsed and all through the comfortable life she is living now. She still has a teddy bear I gave her when we were together, she still has my photos and a lot of the letters I sent her. I thought she was nuts, a bunny boiler at one point since "why would anyone want me so badly" so I finished with her for 6 months worried that she would end up on the doorstep or do something else crazy, but it didn't happen and eventually I got back in touch with her because I missed her so much.
All round, she is perfect for me, worships the ground I walk on and yet knows me well enough to know my faults and weaknesses, but I can't be with her.
I can't be with her because my wife doesn't have many friends and me leaving her would leave her desolate. Even though I'm sure she doesn't love me anymore that's not the point, she relies on me. she has stood by me and is the mother of my children. As well as that I can't be with my lover because I'm not a rich man by any means and it wouldn't be right to drag her away from the great life she has now to one much less grand, maybe not abject poverty but certainly very ordinary and much more limited means.
That's my confession, thank you for reading it,and I feel much better for getting it off my chest even though I know it's a problem without an answer.