Confessions of a 20 year old girl
Ok here I go. Well I'm a 20 year old female.
I was diagnosed a couple years ago with PCOS.
I've always been a chubby kid. But this condition has made it worse and now I'm obese. I find it really hard to lose weight. The most messed up thing about it is that I actually like exercising! I love getting on my treadmill and working hard till I sweat. But It's like I never lose weight. I even watch what I eat. Another messed up thing that comes along with having PCOS is that I don't have regular periods. I have to take an oral contraceptive everyday so my body can have regular periods. But it doesn't even end there. Another symptom of this f***** up condition is excessive hair growth. Yep.. I have hair on my chin, chest, b****, stomach, you name it. I shave, wax, pluck, bleach.. I go through a lot of trouble and I feel so disgusting. My self esteem is non existent. I didn't even mention the worst part.. I might not even be able to have kids lol. I love kids. My dream is to have kids. And theres a possibility that's not even possible. I don't even feel like a women..more like a disgusting walking train wreck. It's not like anyone would want to have a kid with me anyway.. I'm fat..people just look at you and assume you f***** yourself over. I didn't. I f****** try so hard to be normal but I cant. I know no guy will ever give me a chance either. I actually a really nice girl. I'm funny, caring, fun, and loving. But it doesn't matter in the end now does it. I'm f***** for life.