I feel awful
I'm in a relationship, and have been for three years, I rarely see my boyfriend and he rarely comes to visit me, as he lives pretty far away.
I work with a dude who's chill as f***, we share insane amounts of similar interests and I'm pretty sure I've fallen for him in a big way. I'm also pretty sure these feelings are reciprocated. I feel terribly guilty and ashamed of myself, and as much as I try to ignore how I feel, the feelings I have keep getting stronger.
It may sound incredibly arrogant, so please forgive me, but I know that if I ever left my boyfriend, it would kill him.
He has often talked about how he would kill himself(!) if I left (my boyfriend has from aspergers and *often* says how he feels) I love my boyfriend with all my heart, but I cannot stop thinking about this other guy. I hate myself for this. We are all adults in our thirties and forties, so this high school bullshit is even worse.