Maybe I'm a Crypto Catholic?
I converted to Judaism. My attitudes are Jewish. By myself, I pray in Hebrew. But I don't feel really accepted by everyone in the Jewish community, because I'm not ethnically Jewish. I tell myself to concentrate on the Jews who accept me. But it bugs me that there's this attitude among some Jews, and others don't tell them off. Meanwhile, all my adult life I've had this secret habit of praying in Catholic churches, and usually lighting candles too. I venerate the Virgin Mary. I've even gone to Mass a few times and taken communion, though not since I converted to Judaism. This is so weird to me that I'm sick of myself and ashamed of being so two-faced.