Do i deserve another chance to love animals?
I am 15 years old and have owned terrapins, hamsters and Guinea pigs so far.
Tragically I did not know how to properly take good care of them and the terrapins lived for only a year, the hamsters close to 2 years, and the Guinea pigs 7 months due to my negligence.. I cry every night whenever I think of my Guinea pigs that passed last December because I was a terrible owner and I swore to God, on the days of their deaths, that I must never own a pet ever again as I do not deserve the precious animals. I feel ashamed that I was an irresponsible owner. And guilty. Very. I do wish to adopt a pet cat though, and have wanted to for a few months now. But due to my promise to God, I have never been able to forgive myself for causing the too early deaths of my guinea pigs and have only been able to watch videos and tutorials about cats and I have read at least 50 articles about caring for cats. I have also looked at adoption galleries in my local animal shelter websites and adored the 2-3 year old babies but unfortunately I still haven't forgiven myself and don't have the courage to adopt any animal, much less a cat. I need guidance and thoughts as to whether I deserve a chance to adopt a cat. Call me stupid for caring so much for what others think, but I need these thoughts or else I can never forgive myself. I don't know if God allows me either. Thank you for reading my confession, these are words from the bottom of my heart.