I was physically abusive with the man
I was physically abusive with the man in my life -- not enough to hurt him, but like hitting him with the back of my hand....He has been emotionally & mentally abusing me by lying to me and being unfaithful. We are engaged! :( He is LOT bigger than I am (1.5x my size), and I have not intended to hurt him physically, and I haven't hurt him. I did it because of what he was doing and not showing remorse or listening to me, hearing or seeming to care about all of the emotional pain he has caused me. Anyway, I did it about five times during a month, but have stopped and don't do it anymore. I know there was no good excuse, and there is no good excuse to hit someone.
I pray we can make it, but there's much work he would have to do, too! Wishing you the emotional health that I am praying for, for him and me. Thank you! May we all be good, gentle and honoring of each other in all ways.