I'm waaaay scared to tell you this in

I'm waaaay scared to tell you this in person, so I wanted to write you a note...

I'm in love with you, Jason...
I was and I still am...
I feel amazing when i'm with you...
It just clicks with us...
And it makes me cry when i think about my careless mistake and what it cost us...

I pray to every God I know that things can be okay with us...and MAYBE we can start over...*sighs*

I know we are not in a relationship, and "we don't owe each other anything"...but I know I owe you an apology...not the same ol' apology for what happened that break... but an apology for falling apart...

I completely fell apart because I knew I loved you, and I tried to ignore it...as much fun as we had that break, I was terrified at how soon and serious this was...I know I also told you that I couldn't make you any promises...and I am truly apologizing now because as you didn't owe me anything on monday, you did things outside a relationship and NOW I know exactly how you felt...and I just needed to apologize to you for that...

I want your every part to be mine, but I guess I'll take what you're willing to give, as foolhardy and as out of character as it may seem for me...

I'm willing to work with you, for you, and alongside you to make things okay and i'm trying to take this whole FWB thing one day at a time...

You told me as you walked away that you still had feelings for me...
And I almost started crying right there...

I don't want it to hurt anymore, Jason...
And I'll do anything to make it not hurt for you...

I'm your friend now...after all those crazy nights and super sweet mornings, all those great memories and even that time you called me a w****...lol...somehow we lost it, baby...and that thought shakes me...

Somehow we lost it, and I'm soooooo sorry for that...*small tears*

I want it back...and I'm standing right here ready to make that commitment (to change)...

I'll catch you after every fall...talk you thru any problems you have...and help to make you at least half as happy as you make me...

because I love you and you change my life by being in it...

sorry for falling apart,

sweetheart

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  • Jeezzz finally someones listening.

  • P#2: okay, i will

  • i'm wwwwwaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyyy to bored reading this bullshit.
    Kill yourself please..

  • If u havent already give him a note that says everything that u said here.

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