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Scared I will Never Get a White Woman Pregnant
I am in my late 40s.I am so scared that I will grow old and die without having a child with a white woman.
I am in my late 40s.I am so scared that I will grow old and die without having a child with a white woman.
You are so right about all my feelings about this. My friends all think I'm insane for not having left yet but so far I haven't been able to make myself go. She's begun bringing him to the house while I'm there, or having him pick her up for "date night" after I've gotten home from work so I can watch the kids while she's out, and she's even brought him home after a date and sent me out to sleep on the sofa while they occupied the bed in the master bedroom. I've not admitted any of that to any of my friends because they would be sure I was off the edge. When I question their actions, she and Robert both say "stay or go, it doesn't matter". They say the relationship is going to continue no matter what I do: that I am "irrelevant". Robert controls her and she controls me, and she is doing an unbelievable job of that: I think to myself there's no way I'm going to do some particular thing, but then when she orders me to do it, I can't bring myself to resist. My love for her is still predominant, but I don't know how long that can last. So far, they have said nothing about starting a family of mixed race illegitimates for me to raise, and I think I wouldn't do that, but my weakness for her has proven me wrong before. Would it again? Sorry to seem so equivocal and **-whipped, but I can't help it. Between the two of them I feel at a loss to stand up to them. And I have to confess that a part of me thinks this is pure nature at work.
I certainly missed your reply.I am not sure how long ago you posted it. So your woman is bold but her lover is much more impudent!You have become irrelevant? Is she pregnant already?
Whats the most recent developments?
Impudent is precisely the right word for all of this, and that is precisely what both of them are: they now both treat me like a slave. My relevance only occurs within the realm of child-care: my wife has almost totally abandoned that effort or any contribution to it. She still plays at being mommy but takes no role in actually taking care of them at all and never has any meaningful interaction with them. As far as the intentions she and Robert may have a child or children themselves and who would raise them, I've been afraid to ask, though all the important relationship questions that I actually have asked have been ignored, since I don't matter. The most recent development is this (and this is the only place I've communicated this, since I could never tell any friend it's happening): where before they allowed me to stay in the bedroom or go out to the family room while they made love in the bed that my wife and I once shared, now they insist that I stay and watch them have **. Doing that is the most painful and heartbreaking thing I've ever done, though I have to admit to you that I have never seen my wife so thoroughly excited nor so thoroughly satisfied nor so thoroughly happy as when Robert is with her . . . and is IN her. My rationalization is that I am contributing to her happiness in some way. That's insane, I know, but that's how I manage to go on every day.
Man,you are on your way to becoming a true cuckold. Just google that and read more about it and be informed and enjoy your new life.I don't think there is much else you can do at this time,other than have fun or enjoy your wife having fun and many babies with Robert. You WILL be the one raising those kids,so don't even ask.
I do not want to be cuckolded: that's just too hurtful and difficult. You are so right that there isn't much else I can do right now because Robert is in charge of my wife and her life and her body, and it is NOT just when they are together: it's all day at their work and even when she's here at home and he's not here with her. I just can't get away from him being the "boss", both literally and figuratively. I'm still afraid to ask about them having children out of fear that it will put an idea in their heads that isn't already there. Who knows what these two might do? I don't think anything is beyond them, seriously.