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Scared I will Never Get a White Woman Pregnant
I am in my late 40s.I am so scared that I will grow old and die without having a child with a white woman.
I am in my late 40s.I am so scared that I will grow old and die without having a child with a white woman.
I sure do understand that: I get the "crisis calls" like you do. In fact, I get them from her and from another woman I dated right after I got divorced from my first wife. I wasn't married to that woman: we just dated after the divorce, even though she was still married. And also like you said, this business with my first wife may be nothing more than a dream or wishful thinking, but I sure do wish I was hitting that, because ** that woman is hot and fine! Was you wife that way? Was she so good that you can't really replace her?
I was not married to the mother of our sons.She is between skinny and medium size but nothing special(woman's size does not matter to me anyway).I just liked her naturally though I won't say am in love with her really.I love the kids much more and by extension,respect the fact that she is their mother and try to put up with her.I help her any chance I get as that indirectly helps the kids.I know her well enough to believe that if she was the only woman available to me,the ** will be ok,but I will be the loneliest guy ever.I can replace her easily, and I have, but I always think about her because of our kids. The woman I have now is much better than any woman I have had my whole life.Why I don't just marry her and settle down,I have no clue. I think its because I am still dreaming of having a bi-racial baby one day and she can't give me one.If she could,she would be my wife already. Sounds selfish but honestly true.
Based partly on the fact that she appears to have recently borne your children and is now pregnant again by another man, I'm guessing that the woman you describe is rather young, and so she was really quite young when you began the relationship with her. That makes perfect sense to me, since she's behaving insecurely and occasionally (maybe MORE than occasionally) irrationally, and even against her own interests. I dated a very, very young girl myself for a while after my divorce, so I can sympathize with the risk-reward effort to balance the wild ** and youthful attitude against the crazy selfishness they exhibit. If I were in your position, I think I would, like you, hold off on fully committing to the older woman until you can locate a white one to make your dream come true. There HAS to be lots of white women out there who want what you want: a mixed race child, fathered by an educated black man who cares . . . . about her and the child. I know you'll find one.
My sons mom is now 30,when we had our first son,she was 23. Some younger women have drama(just like some older ones),but honestly,I prefer having kids with a much younger woman than someone much closer to my age.I am terrified of birth problems that medical people say could result from a older woman(lets say in her 40)and I(being in the same age bracket)having kids.I mitigate that by choosing a younger woman(though there are no guarantees in life). Therefore, your thoughts are mine-I am trying to hold off hoping to make my dream come to fruition.It does not seem easy as I, or one would think or expect, and its taking so long that am starting to imagine my goal is unattainable,lol. But honestly am hoping to find one good one at some point.Thanks for wishing me luck.I wish u all the best too:)