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Scared I will Never Get a White Woman Pregnant
I am in my late 40s.I am so scared that I will grow old and die without having a child with a white woman.
I am in my late 40s.I am so scared that I will grow old and die without having a child with a white woman.
Yes, we are all white, which is partly why I think my life is so bland in comparison to all these other exciting women and even a few girls. And you're right about me and Ken: we both have the kind of personalities that don't put us in a dangerous situation short-term which would adversely affect our long-term affair. Lots of people get lazy about their preparation precautions or just begin to believe that they will never get caught or get so ** that they think their bodies can't wait or shouldn't have to wait. My best girlfriend from college was like that, and it wound up costing her both her first and second marriages (that's a long story). I'm certainly glad that never happened to me. Also, I've gone back and reread that other confession you mentioned from the other site, and every time I do, I wish that I was her, and that I had the nerve to get her husband's friend to knock her up. God, how I wish I was her! Anyway, thanks again for her hot confession. **! And thanks for being so nice.
Thanks too for being so sweet and kind.Your life is not bland,its simply satisfying,discreet,mature and drama free. Knowing that both of you are white,I could honestly say say you should have let Ken knock you up long ago.I say that based on the fact that the baby could probably have favored you and blended in,unlike having a bi-racial child, who could have stood out.If you had chosen not to tell either of them,none of the two men could have known anything different. You would have enjoyed being the keeper of the utmost secret-being the only one who knows who the true father is:).Given that you have been able to be so successful in handling this affair,having a baby with Ken would not have been any different-at least I think.But its the wearer who knows where the shoe pinches, and I have never been in your high heels. Technically,you have two husbands, given how long this has lasted. In some cultures of Asia and South America,a woman can marry two brothers and it matters not who knocks the woman up-the kid is considered as being fathered by both men. Please find time to read this one article linked below. If you have time,click on where it says "Human Nature",in blue, to get to the actual research. You don't have to buy it; highlight the title,search it on google and read it all for free.Enjoy.
http://www.theatlantic.com/health/archive/2013/02/when-taking-multiple-husbands-makes-sense/272726/
You're right about so much and there's not enough room here to explain how, so I'll just focus on the two bigger pictures. Yes, you're right about the thrill of a secret in paternity (I really LOVE that whole idea!!), and I have thought often about doing exactly that: having Ken knock me up and not telling anybody who the real father is. My fear has always been that I would break down and tell Ken it was his, or worse, that we would be at an office picnic or other party, and the paternity would suddenly become shockingly evident to everyone. The odds are against that method of discovery, I admit, but I never felt comfortable enough to take the chance. Still, our bodies want what they want, and I not only want Ken in mine, I want his baby (or babies) in me, too. Sometimes, it hurts to NOT be pregnant by him. Oh, well....... The other thing is more interesting. I liked the article on polyandry, and I agree with your assessment of it and its application to me. I have always believed -- ever since I was a teenager, long before Ken entered my life (and all three of my holes) -- that there are women just who need more ** than one man could ever provide, and so those women SHOULD be cheating. But where the authors of the study think it's a practical arrangement THAT BENEFITS THE HUSBAND, my belief is that it should be left TO THE WIFE to decide, and it should always ALWAYS be a sexual thing, not practical. What I'm talking about is physical, but more so, ROMANTIC: the study takes the fun out of the arrangement! But once again, you are correct: I really DO have two husbands, and I love the one I'm not married to more than the one I am married to. The college girlfriend I mentioned is one of those women, and I guess I have to admit, I am, too, though my appetites are more controllable! :) Thanks for the insights.
Welcum and thanks for reading the article.I write the way you express your thoughts actually.So are you going to let Ken knock you up or what are you thinking?Is age on your side? if you got knocked up,can you handle it physically and logistically?How miserable or happier would you be, later in life if you ended up with, or without, Ken's child? Do the two men have some physical resemblances?I have known this one young black lady and her family,in another country, for many years.She has a 6 month old baby and the father(I do not know him) lives 4 hours drive from me.I have been talking to her since last year, and we text each other frequently,or call each other occasionally.I started teasing her that she has two husbands.So sometimes I ask her "how is my co-husband doing?".I sent her the title of that article and she had a big laugh. She has come to accept the co-husband idea, and actually wants me to knock her up with her next baby.I tell her he will be the main one and I would be the secret one,but we will both share her for the rest of her life(she's 29),unless he does not want her and in that case,I will take over.The problem is her baby daddy and I have to be there at the same time (which is almost impossible) so that the pregnancy illegitimacy is not so obvious.This all started because her little sister,who wanted my baby so badly, died unexpectedly in a horrible accident,enabling the surviving sister, and I, to become close,and even talking babies.Not sure I can accomplish that living thousands of miles apart. So logistically,its difficult for me,but quite possible for you!
don't mean to deflect or deter the discussion but i thought i would add my experience. i have 4 kids all born during my marriage to my husband. but 2 of them were actually fathered biologically by another man who doesnt know they are his. with the 1st i thought the same as you: i was certain i would blurt out the truth to somebody, either my husband or my lover or both. it was soooooo hard to keep the secret at first during the first 5 months of my pregnancy but then it started to get easier. i think a lot of that was cause the pregnancy was an ** thrillride. i felt like such a **, and of course i was an incredible **, but it felt.....so......good to be so much of a **. after the baby was born it was even a more heated sexual charge to have this baby my husband thought was his BUT IT WASN'T. by the time of the second child.....god i was so ** to be pregnant for an illegitimate kid that i almost couldnt stand it. now only my best girlfriend knows about the paternity of my children and she knows i love my 2 bastards more than my legitimates. but even she doesnt know (yet) that i am planning a third child by my lover. trust me hun.....your going to love having ken's children right under your husbands nose. what are you waiting for????? :)