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Scared I will Never Get a White Woman Pregnant
I am in my late 40s.I am so scared that I will grow old and die without having a child with a white woman.
I am in my late 40s.I am so scared that I will grow old and die without having a child with a white woman.
A lot has transpired since we wrote to each other in the spring but I'll try to be brief. First, two more of the mixed race babies have been born, for a total of six, so there are four left to be born. And that doesn't include the pregnant mother of one of the girls. I have gotten to know her in the last two months well enough to ask her about her pregnancy and it is apparently true: one of the black boys is almost certainly the father, although she has no idea which one......and she loves not knowing. She is still having ** with all of them, and two of them she claims have ** bigger than horses. She wants to hook me up with either the entire group or the two that are so hung, and she says she knows they will love me and that they will treat me better than they treat the daughters. You asked about my daughter and when you did, I thought I had convinced her not to get pregnant. But then I heard she broke up with her white boyfriend and was dating three black boys (not in the ** gang) and was bragging to her friends that she "will be bred by the time school starts". She actually used the word "bred". Unfortunately, when I confronted her, she apparently knew about my conversation with the other mother, and told me "I know you're going to ** them, so why are you ** me out?" The matter is unresolved, but I guess I have to admit that it's even more arousing to think of being pregnant at the same time as my own daughter, even though it would be by different boys. I feel lost, but I also feel like I am heading toward something beautiful. It's scary. Anyway, I though you might want to know........
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Thanks a million for the update. I am not sure when you posted it, sorry if I have delayed noting it. The new website is too weird to me. It seems like a lot of new life is happening in your town. I wish I lived in that town, just to see it with my own eyes. It seems to me that this tidal wave is sucking you in, and sometime in 2016, you will be delivering. Speaking of delivering, my ex girlfriend (now married) had a baby two weeks ago. I just came back from her place after eating dinner there, and visiting with our sons. Her husband (supposedly father of the baby),lives far from here and so, I have been the errand boy-I dropped off my ex at a hospital the day she had the baby, went to hospital a few times to drop off our sons to see the newborn or pick the sons up, or bring mother baby and sons home. I figured since I do not have much choice, let me enjoy the newborn, since his dad not here yet, and for as long as the mother am friendly with me. Your hubby may end up being in the same situation in the near future, and I am sure most of those other hubbies and parents are in the same situation; enjoying the new lives because they simply do not have a choice. Best of luck and please, keep updating.
I think that must be frustrating ...... to see your ex having a baby and it not being yours. BUt maybe that makes you want to do her even harder? She sounds pretty sexual so maybe it will happen before the husband moves back home, and it WILL if you keep spending more time with her. As for me, well....... we found out 2 weeks ago that our daughter is pregnant. She swears she don't know who the daddy is but I know it has to be one of the 3 black boys who have been loving her sooooo hard since this summer. Even though I knew it would happen, I really thought I would be angry and hurt when it did, but I wasn't. Instead I was secretly aroused by it. VERY secretly. And VERY aroused. I got my new pregnant friend (the mom of one of the pregnant girls) to introduce me to one of the black boys with the big ** (I was sure I couldn't handle both of them, much less all seven at once) and she set up a date for her, me and the boy at her house while her husband was at work. She ** him in front of me to break the ice (THAT was so WILD), but all I could make myself do was give him a **. The second date was the same, but that time I also gave him 2-3 bj's. We've done that two more times but so far I can't briNg myself to let him inside me. I do have to admit though that the boy told me to get off my birth control and I have did that, but I just don't know if I can go all the way with him. Plus, I don't know how much embarrassment my husband could handle (he knows our daughter is pregnant but not that the baby will be BLACK), so I'm really torn. Well, I'm not torn about the boy: he has the most amazing ** I have ever seen in my life, and there are days when that ** is all I can think about. And just like my friend said, he treats me better than he treats the young girls, and I have seen that. I'm in a real mess, but I am more alive than I have ever been. That makes no sense I guess........except that I want him more all the time. And he wants me.
I don't know if to say congrats for your daughter or not.But I think she has done well for you and herself. After the baby is well nursed,she ought to get back to some school,get a good certificate or degree to be able to take care of the baby better. As for you,you are moving in the right direction,and I believe you are unequivocally hooked. Believe it or not,you will ** him soon, and be knocked up at that. You may even have twins.It seems like there is a female revolt not only in your town but in your husbands house. I see you pregnant by the end of this year. My ex gf probably thought I will be upset that she is having a baby by someone else. She was never nice to my adult daughters. I make it a point to be genuinely nice to her son. I even dropped her off at the hospital to have the baby,visited her while she and baby were there, and picked her up n dropped her off at her place at discharge. It probably eats her up that I am not mean to her,but she is the mother of my sons, and I must deal with her new baby for years to come.I might as well start now and get used to it as a normal part of my life. Maybe she will reward me with some loving some day:)
:) You can say whatever you like, of course, and whether about my daughter or her baby or her sexuality or anything else, because you have inspired so much sensual love and warmth here and because so many women are opening themselves up to possibilities that they didn't have before, it is just wonderful!!!! So you can say congratulations on my daughter's pregnancy. I have to say that she looks great in pregnancy and so happy, and sooooooooooo ** too. Even her father says she looks good (but he doesn't say ** LOL, and of course he doesn't know what color the baby is going to be yet). And when I see the way she looks I get so jealous knowing what I know about how that happened. Also when I see her pregnant it makes me think about this young black boy and his incredible **....Jesus just writing to you about all of this makes me wet! And it reminds me how nice he's being about waiting for me to do something. I guess I have to try not to think of him although that is almost impossible for me these days. Anyway, I think your ex is probably realizing what a mistake she made and realizing what a true gentleman you are and how unusual that is anymore, and I think she will start wanting you again, probably instead of her baby daddy, but at least in addition to him. Have you thought about that? I mean about having a affair with her, being like on the side, and someone she takes when she wants something other than her husband or boyfriend? Would you be cool with that, even if it was just for the romance and the **, or would you want more than that? Would you want to knock her up again, too? That's too many questions but I can tell you really still care about her, and it's REALLY obvious how sexual and how fertile she is (like WOW!), and I know for a fact you care about relationships, so have you thought about what you would be willing to accept with her and what you want?