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Scared I will Never Get a White Woman Pregnant
I am in my late 40s.I am so scared that I will grow old and die without having a child with a white woman.
I am in my late 40s.I am so scared that I will grow old and die without having a child with a white woman.
You have great insight into people, even people you don't know. Amazing. You're so right. My daughter and son-in-law are NOT a good match AT ALL, and that was some of my rationalization in entering the affair with him, and also in connecting him to Iris. They were high school sweethearts beginning in her senior year when he moved to town. At first I was glad they connected because she had spent the two previous years involved with an older married man (a very risky situation), but then when Justin started coming around and he and I were obviously "clicking" in an extreme way, I wasn't so glad about their dating. But still you are correct: they don't mesh. Justin meshed with me, and he totally meshes with Iris: I can see him and Iris together and know that he loves her now as much as he loved me all those years ago, and even more because of their child. Justin gets to see the girl often but she doesn't know he's her father, just that he's a friend of her mom and is my son-in-law. Once Iris's husband is gone, they will probably tell her about the situation, and I am sure she'll accept it, because Iris has raised her to be very open about ** and to accept all types of relationships, and she has no qualms about infidelity: like her mother, the child thinks every one should have ** with whoever they are attracted to and whoever they can attract. After the husband's death, I think Justin will leave my daughter, but whether or not he does that, he will be more open about what's happening with Iris. He and I haven't talked about that, but I know Iris will do whatever her man wants because that's who she is. {more below}
As for hiding my relationships, I do it the same way every other woman does: lying. LOL. Seriously, there's plenty of lying involved, but also I am a part of a group of ladies that travels frequently to an out-of-state casino (with a regular bus service for patrons), and we use that as an excuse for being away over night, whether or not we actually go to the casino (I could tell you such stories about our escapades at the casino). Iris is a part of the group too, so she has had her fair share of the fun with strangers on a gambling junket (and she and I have been between each other's legs many a time, for our own pleasure and/or for the pleasure of whatever man or men we were entertaining). On a smaller scale, I have a fling going now with a married man who lives on our street, and anytime he comes by our house and doesn't see my husband's car, he "drops in" for a quickie. He prefers **, so with my dryness problem, he's my "backdoor man" in more ways than one. LOL. I have to say that I am so sorry that your girlfriend isn't able to fulfill your dream for you and with you: I know that has to be so so so sad for both of you, but especially you, because if you'd found each other just slightly sooner, your lives could be so much more complete. I know you'll find what you're after, I just know it, but I can tell you love this woman and having her mother a child for you would really be sweet and would probably reduce some of the stress in relating to your ex. C'est la vie, non? You mentioned the hormone patch, and yes, I was aware of it, and even asked my doctor about it maybe three years ago and he said I wasn't a candidate for it because of the cancer risk. I'm supposedly clear now, but I had lung cancer awhile back, so there are some hormones I can't take, for breast cancer reasons etc. I would give ANYthing to be as wet as I was even in my forties, and to be able to squirt again, but I'm afraid my squirting days are over. Anyway, thanks for your tremendous kindness.
Thanks for all that. I wish you best of health so you can witness the impending drama,if and when Iris' hubby dies and the truth comes out.I am sure you will be exposed and be the center of the fiasco.I trust you will be able to handle it. I also hope you find a good hormone patch. My gf squirts to exhaustion,that we purchased a special pad to protect the bed during **,lol.