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Scared I will Never Get a White Woman Pregnant
I am in my late 40s.I am so scared that I will grow old and die without having a child with a white woman.
I am in my late 40s.I am so scared that I will grow old and die without having a child with a white woman.
I am sure you have read a thing or two about psychoanalysis and many other such schools of thought.You have to overcome fear somehow and it seems like there is a lot of it in your life,This is neither an accusation nor a diagnosis-just an observation from a distance. Some of the fears you repress need to be confronted.You are not doing yourself a favor by not seeking out your mom and finding out what the situation is.If you, ,your siblings or dad have had no contact with her over the years,its not right to assume that she does not want to hear from you.Unless you tell her,she will never know that your ** stay wet for more than 8 hours of your work day, over some handsome black man, who happens to be your boss.Being married,you may also be worried, subconsciously,that if you open your legs and heart to your boss,he might take you away from your hubby,the same thing that happened to your mom. That could ,or could not happen.He may want just **,marriage,friendship,or absolutely nothing.But you can't just be getting wet and **, and do much of nothing about it.It does not seem fair to you,your heart,pvssy, body or even the unsuspecting guy,who is a major object of your eroticism and **. You should not be worried or ashamed that the guy would know you drip wet when around him,just accept that he has that amazing effect on you and own the experiences you have had with him in mind-he is a lucky guy and he probably will be very delighted to know.You also know that some jobs discourage fraternization between bosses and subordinates. Chances are,the guy may not make a move on you even though he would like to. That means you have to take charge,show him some subtle interest,promise him discreetness and enjoy the fruits of your labor,outside of work( or you can do it at work,I have countless times over the years).I strongly believe that overtime and while married,you are going to have ** with some black guy,its in you.Choose the boss you adore.
I'm sorry I didn't respond sooner to your very insightful and very wise advice. The last two sentences really found their way into my soul and heart and mind in addition to my body. When you said "I strongly believe that over time and while married, you are going to have ** with some black guy, it's in you", the warmth and beauty of that first lodged in my womb but immediately spread to the walls of my **: I could actually feel it there. That prediction really was "in me" exactly as you said. But rather than allow that connection to be with just some random man, you encouraged me not to choose at random: you said "Choose the boss you adore." I swear to God it was like that fact was lingering in my life, up in the sky, and had been there for years when suddenly it descended from heaven and wrapped itself around me when you said it, comforting me with the belief and the certainty that I would become the ** partner of a black man WHILE MARRIED and that it would be my boss. With that shocking realization I immediately stopped caring about my life aligning with my mother's and began to plan my life around finding a way to become my boss's lover or wife. Actually I don't care what I become to him. I only care that he begins to come to me and be in my life and in between my legs. I would totally be nothing more than his ** if that's what he wants. The only problem is getting myself from where I am to where all of this is true and while I explore that path I'm sure he's going to start smelling my juicing for him because that's now much worse than it was before and it's almost like I'm leaving puddles in my chair at work and leaving a trail behind me when I walk in the office. Maybe it's just a myth but I have heard and read that black men can smell a woman's ** as soon as it starts moistening and that some of them can even tell when she's ovulating. Thank you for your loving perspectives and your encouragement.
Ohhhh waoooo! I think I must read that over again..I have no clue what to add here. You have transformed yourself to a new you, and you are unlikely to reverse yourself. please just keep us updated,even on a weekly basis. I love the new found power,energy,and enthusiasm in your whole being:)
I stayed late at work one night last week, and after everybody had left but him and me, I went into his office and closed the door behind me. I told him I needed to talk to him about something personal and I was about to sit in one of the chairs across from his desk when he said, "Go back and lock the door." As I did that he told me he knew what I wanted to talk about, that he had known for awhile. He told me to get undressed down to my bra and ** and he came around to my side of his desk and bent me over it. I know you know what happened so I won't bore you with all the filthy details except to say to you that it was the best ** of my life, with him standing behind me and taking me vaginally and anally over and over until I not only couldn't stand anymore of it, I literally couldn't stand up anymore. Before I left to go home he told me he didn't care about my marriage or my family and said "You are mine now. Completely." And so I am. We've made love in his office or in a motel four times since then, and each time has been better than the time before it. I don't know what the future holds, but I do know this: I belong to my boss now, and I am in love. I had thought I loved my husband and my daughter, but I see now that wasn't love. What I have with my boss is love.
OHHHHHHHH lord! What else could a girl ask for? Sounds like a good movie to me. I am so delighted things have converged just as you were dreaming. I don't remember,are you on birth control? I am sure soon,and very soon,your life at home will change too in some way. May your loving heart overflow with love and happiness. I am thrilled for you. Thanks for such an ** update.Please keep everybody here updated.