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Scared I will Never Get a White Woman Pregnant
I am in my late 40s.I am so scared that I will grow old and die without having a child with a white woman.
I am in my late 40s.I am so scared that I will grow old and die without having a child with a white woman.
You bombed your hubby to the core by the information you told him. Believe it or not,you current status is not all you fault. Four years of agony,anticipation,longing, and craving,without any quencher on sight, is hard for anybody to take. From what you have told here,you were at a breaking point, and something had to happen urgently. The promiscuity may not auger well for you however.You have to stop that and get your emotions sorted out before you get a bad disease or get knocked up, and have a baby with a guy who may turn out to be emotionally worse than hubby. But whether your break-up came today, or next week, or next year,is not the point.The point is that the action was impending, and it was just a matter of time. If you find happiness and satisfaction in the near future by having invoked my name,I will be so delighted-no marriage that I know of(other than yours and mine)has ever broken up because of me.Anxiety is a marriage killer. Here are some quotes by Anais Nin that may sooth your body and mind; "Throw your dreams into space like a kite, and you do not know what it will bring back, a new life, a new friend, a new love, a new country","How wrong it is for a woman to expect the man to build the world she wants, rather than to create it herself", "And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom", "Dreams are necessary to life" "Life shrinks or expands in proportion to one's courage","People living deeply have no fear of death"... If you think about it,all those statements apply to you and your situation. Trust in God and your capabilities,and believe it or not,all these will pass and you shall overcome, emerging happier,stronger,multiplied. I am sending you my hugs and appreciating your courage.
......i know your right...i really do........and i appreciate your being so honest to me like you do....and that makes me even more sorry about kinda using you to hurt adam like i have been..........and also like i keep doing. he called me at work yesterday afternoon right before i was leaving and told me to come home.....see? he told me he didn't even ask me....well that made me mad so i said i would have to call you and ask your permission....so i waited for 15 minutes or about that and then i called him back and told him that you said no ** way...i told him you said he had his chance FOR FOUR ** YEARS and couldn't satisfy my body or my heart or give me what it needed or wanted so now you were going to give it to me and keep giving it to me until you wore me out......i told him you said "don't talk to that small-** white-boy anymore until i say so" and that you were my man now and i was your property now, and i hung the phone up.....and just so you will know it even though i am ** a lot of guys right now i am still on my BC (i lied to adam about you making me stop it) and i am making them wrap up (except one guy who i sort of know and who i really HAVE to have **)......more later when work slows down a little.....
Leaving work now ..... going to get laid ........... can't ** wait ..... will write tomorrow.....
This is so riotous...I just had to laugh. How did you enjoy getting laid?
... it was okay ... not great .... he's white so he is NOT hung like you :( ..... but it was enough for one night (we had to ** early because his wife was coming home after work and bringing their kids home) ...... but check THIS ** out! after the ** i went back to the club to meet the girl i'm staying with and we drank for a while and then went to a fortune teller downtown ......... this fortune teller told me that i would be pregnant by the end of this year and that the baby would NOT be my husband's baby!!! can you even believe it????