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Scared I will Never Get a White Woman Pregnant
I am in my late 40s.I am so scared that I will grow old and die without having a child with a white woman.
I am in my late 40s.I am so scared that I will grow old and die without having a child with a white woman.
You should be a professional writer, since you are so able to tap into the interior lives of the people who read your work. Perhaps that's what you do, anyway, but if it's not, you should totally make it an avocation, if not a vocation. The way you describe the thrill of dating a married white woman is EXACTLY how I think of the relationships I dream of with black men, and my fantasies of adultery have ALWAYS been exclusively interracial. ALWAYS. Even when I was in middle school. I will confess to you that I've had four adulterous relationships during my nineteen years of marriage, all with white men, and none that lasted longer than a few weeks: the relationships were a disappointment (one was an outright disaster, in fact), and so were the men. Why? They weren't black. Yes, a part of the problem was my fear of discovery, but mostly it was that they never fulfilled me or my intense need for love. I want to be what you described: a Queen to a fine black gentlemen, who knows his business and knows his women, and who keeps them in their place. I could write to you for hours, but there are space limits, and I have to begin the workday. One final thought, when you said that when I find my special black man, my ** will seize him, I actually felt it down there, like my ** was grabbing for something. Reaching for it. Needing it. I got soooooo wet, and my womb began to twitch and ache and want. God, yes, you should be writing interracial romances. Oh God YES!!! On the other hand, one could say that you've been doing that for almost four years, the only difference being that, instead of fiction, you've been writing non-fiction. (BTW: we live in Illinois.)
I thought you lived in the boon-docks somewhere. You should have no problems at all hoocking up with an awesome black man in Illinois. Now I discover that you are an experienced woman in dating, outside marriage, and I feel much better-your chances for success in this ** endeavor are very high; all you must do now is go black...black man that is. You must stop thinking and procrastinating about this because you have been doing so since middle school; a lifetime of denying yourself what your mind, heart, ** craves so much for so long. You’re being unfair to yourself. You have a white husband at home and he’s not as fulfilling to you as you would like. You get chances to remedy that, enjoy yourself discreetly and then you pick white men 4 times, when what you really know you desire is 1 caring, loving, endowed black man? Think about it for a second. You are of sound mind, eloquent, intelligent, surely beautiful, educated, learned, experienced....and you failed to realize you were trying new things but getting the same undesired results? Change is noble and I am certain you understand what I am driving at. You and I, even your gf, know that you deserve what you know you have been wanting, missing, hungering for your whole life. How about we say you, give the books a break, get into action, and accomplish your goal in 60 days from today? I saw a visual of your wetness, made me smile. I will never make any money as a romance writer. I did enjoy reading novels greatly in my younger days and always planned to write one but never did. I would love to read from you any chance you get. I think you should post your 60-day search progress here. I never thought this page will go on for this long. But you cannot imagine the great energizing feeling of conviviality I get from interacting with folks here. It saddens me when, after a while, a person I have been reading from disappears, leaving me wondering what ever happened to their situation.