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Scared I will Never Get a White Woman Pregnant
I am in my late 40s.I am so scared that I will grow old and die without having a child with a white woman.
I am in my late 40s.I am so scared that I will grow old and die without having a child with a white woman.
No, no mixed children, although I certainly understand that urge as it is beautifully expressed here: I get that totally. I will say that there was one white lady I dated on the DL when I was young that I wanted to have children with. She was almost twice my age at the time, and had grown kids. I so wanted to knock her up at least once, and though we dated for several years, she could never bring herself to get off the pill: she wanted us to have a family of our own, but she didn't want to risk her share of what her husband would one day inherit from his family, and I could not blame her. She had to think of her own security and her own future, and I could never have replaced that. But losing that family was and remains my greatest regret in life.
Sorry to hear of your regret and that she never had children for you. But glad that you were able to enjoy each other for so long.
You said earlier that you were dark-skinned, so the contrast of your skin colors must have been so **. Something tells me you would have had beautiful children with her. Did you keep in touch? How could her husband have been so clueless for so long? How old are you now if you don't mind my asking?
You can't go back in time, but have you considered finding one or two white women (married or single) now who would be willing to have babies for you? I think that would help with your issues of regret and longing, and would make some white women very happy too.
Absolutely true: that difference in our color was so **. Usually that's something that white women are drawn to, and this woman was, but I loved it too. She was pale and lightly freckled and I loved being next to her, and especially laying naked with her or with her hand around my **. I also agree that we could have made beautiful children, and we even talked about that when discussing the possibility of knocking her magnificent ** up. We kept in touch, but not frequently and rarely sexually. Sadly (very sadly), she developed breast cancer, and though treatments and surgeries worked for several years, eventually it came back with a vengeance and she passed in 2012 . I believed at the time, and still believe, that if my wife died, it wouldn't sadden me as much as losing this wonderful lover. That's a horrible thing to say, I know, but since this is anonymous, I'm comfortable being candid. Her husband? At the time I thought he was just an idiot for NOT knowing his wife was cheating so boldly and so often. But with some additional experience, I can see that white men are mostly so self-involved and egotistical that they would never assume their women could possibly be disloyal: that attitude makes their wives easy prey for men like me who have no ethical -- much less, moral -- problem using their wives as our ** playground. The white husbands really make it easy for us. I've ** a lot of white women in my 57 years on the planet (starting as a teenage swinging **) but I've never wanted to have children with any of them other than Lila. The only exception actually is a young white intern who now works at my office, though she likely wouldn't be interested in a man my age (she's 20): even though she's hot as fresh ** and she looks like she'd be a wonderful mother. Just a dream (of the wet variety - LOL). Anyhow, thanks for the trip down memory lane. And thanks for acknowledging our enjoyment of one another (just below). I appreciate both.
So sorry to hear of Lila's passing. Really glad you have so many loving times to look back on.
Don't be so quick to dismiss that white intern. You'll read on this page that lots of very young white women are attracted to, and want to get knocked up by, older married black men. What have you got to lose? Ask her out to lunch and flirt a little. Then escalate to dinner and some serious dating. She'll be all over your black ** in no time, and might even start longing for your babies. I say go for it!
Very true I think. He is just like me,spent younger days having ** with fine white women,never knocked any up,and now that we are older,mature and wanting to have some bi-racial kids,mothers are not easy to come by. There is plenty of ** of course,but not mothers. Could be that the 20 year old is it for him.She will land a good job soon anyway, and start her own life.If she finds him worthy,she will seize the opportunity.
Your words are like gas on a fire already burning! I have a really bad case of the nasties for this white girl, and she gets me hard every time I'm around her. When she comes into my office, I have to slide my chair under the desk so she can't see the effect she has on me. Knocking her up would be the pinnacle for me: there could be nothing better in life than having children with her and being her lover. I don't fantasize much anymore, but this child makes me fantasize and ** like crazy.
Very sad to hear about the unfortunate passing of your lover. May she RIP. To this day,you cannot believe how many messages I see online whereby some white men are bragging about how their white wives would not ever be interested in sleeping with not black or African American men(that description would be too respectful),but N*****.They are so cocky about it that they become delusional.Mostly,the reality is different and shocking. Just like you,I have been with married women so trusted by hubby,that even when the wife constantly cheats,hubby is blind,out of touch with the reality,cannot see or even catch up to it,just totally oblivious.Then in some cases,when the affair comes to light,wife blames hubby for not paying her any attention and either marriage ends(I have never caused a marriage to end) or they stay together and wife keeps on enjoying her affair(s).I have noticed that women 20-30 years younger than I are very interested in me. I just run from some of them. But two of my 3 mothers of my kids are 20 years younger than I.The lesbian couple I donated sperm to recently is 26 years my junior,although no ** was involved. I am sure you know that in some cases,age is inconsequential.
Thank you for the kind condolences; it means a lot. Because she and I weren't openly involved, I didn't get (couldn't ask for) sympathy from my friends or hers, even though I was much closer to her than her pitiful white husband. He was as you described: cocky and delusional. I was tempted to tell him just what I had been up to with his wife, and all the things she wanted with me that she would never ask him to do to her. He was just what you said he was: "out of touch with reality". My brother! You are banging those young girls aren't you and knockin they ** all the way up! **! **!!!! Keep up the good work and represent the fam!! **!!!!!!