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Scared I will Never Get a White Woman Pregnant
I am in my late 40s.I am so scared that I will grow old and die without having a child with a white woman.
I am in my late 40s.I am so scared that I will grow old and die without having a child with a white woman.
A year and a half??!! From that, and from her reaction, I'd say it's a safe bet that she has a black lover who has ordered her to stop having ** with you. It all seems to fit. Her fertile body is more than ready for his seed by now, and it will be his seed, not yours, that finally knocks her up. The most noble thing you can do is to stand by your wife and support their mixed offspring as best you can. Her black lover probably has other obligations (most likely a wife and family), so don't do anything to mess that up for him. Sorry for your pain, but nature is taking its course, and there's no point in resisting it. Best of luck to you, your wife, and if true, her black lover and mixed race baby soon on the way.
The certainty with which you hold your beliefs, and the clarity of your expression of them, is really quite troubling to me. You not only make it seem possible, you make it seem real. Like it's actually already happening. Like there's a fetus, and it's half her and half him (whoever "him" is, if there is a lover). I know you have great experience in these matters of the heart (and womb), and so, while I don't necessarily agree with you, I can't refute what you wrote. My wife has a romantic streak in her, and if he discovered that and stroked it, then maybe his blackness would not be the obstacle I think of it as being. The kind of man you describe -- focused on her body and its pleasure, not purely on his own, and someone who is married and sensitive to women, and someone who wants to "give her" a baby -- is the sort of man she would respond to. That fact makes me very afraid. I still believe that she's not a cheater, but if he is appealing to her in a romantic way, and not as a man seeking a purely sexual liaison, it's possible I may have underrated the risk. It's going to be hard for me to sleep at night with all these factors swirling in my head, but they are things I must think about.
I took a few philosophy classes as an undergrad. I just felt like I was in one of those classes all over again. I had to stare at my screen long enough to realize I was in no class.