Cheating wife

Just fyi........theres a younger black guy that works in the same mall where I work and I see him with young white girls there all the time but never anybody older than him, and some of them are really young. The young girls all just seem drawn to him like magnets and he obviously loves all the attention he gets from white girls and my feminine intuition tells me hes probably ** a lot of them if not all of them (there are 2 in particular that I'm sure aren't legal but that I'm sure are already sexually active). He and I know each others names and we speak when we pass or see each other but I don't get any feeling like he is interested in me AT ALL even though I've fantasized about him sometimes. But ever since I started reading these posts from these women about not just getting laid and getting dominated by black men BUT HAVING THEIR BABIES, now it seems like all I can think about is spreading my legs for this young man and making sure I get impregnated by him. I've even started thinking about how I might seduce him and be certain that by then I've been off my birth control for long enough that he would give me a baby. I know it won't happen because he has no interest in me or even in somebody my age, but I have at least started dreaming about it. My daydreaming has become evident to my husband and children although they don't have a clue what I've been thinking and I'll never tell, but it sort of worries me that when I talk to this young man even in passing that he'll be able to read my mind or be able to tell exactly what I want. I could live with the embarrassment by lying about my intentions, but I don't know if I could live with the heartbreak of wanting him so bad and knowing for sure that I can't get him.