Those are all my dark secrets that clearly show what a loser with a capital "l" I am :( I'm a woman from Europe nad those are ones I never shared with anyone before. So... let's start.
1. I'll turn 30 soon but due to a bad social phobia and a total lack of social skills, I never had a bf (and believe me that I'm not asexual or anything like that; on the opposite ;) ). I had also only one friend in my life - when I was a teen. I also had a job for a year only in my life. I was bullied in it.
2. I twice was in hospital when I was a young girl and those were just because I... made up my illnesses to make people get interested in me.
3. I'm a weirdo and a VERY socially awkward due to this, I have some neurodevelopmental disorder which is most likely a low functioning Aspergers or at least SI issues with additional OCD, ADD and social phobia. Every time I have to go out, like to see a doctor or something like that, I do it only with my mom. Heck, I don't buy clothes for myself, that's what mom does for me. I only pretend I like being on my own and people just think I'm an introvert. I'm very immature, though as a kid and teen, it was on the opposite- I was VERY mature.
4. In high school every year I barely managed to avoid repeating a year due to maths problems - and I was a smart child, I was gifted, I could read at 3 as well as I do now. I'm very talented in the field of literature though, if I wanted, I could be a writer and I will be one day.
5. At 20 I told my mom I was attacked by a stranger who beat me up and tore off my clothes - I made it up to excuse myself for my being lost for two days in the woods near our relatives' house, whom we were visiting then. Mom would get so angry for my being just lost. So I told her some crazy guy assaulted me in there when I was picking up berries. And I barely avoided going to the police my mom insisted on.
6. I happened to be a troll a couple of times, I made up crazy stuff that hurt my readers.
7. I had trichotillomania as a teen, I still have a small bald spot on the top of my head I'm very embarassed of but I'm always telling people it's alopecia.
8. I have some sexual fetishes concerning violence. And I was a very h**** child. I can fall in love only with literary or movie characters - or with historical ones, NEVER in real men. Until those are celebrities who have no idea I exist.
9. I still remember painfully well my all mistakes and goofs from my teenagehood. I feel horrible when I recall then.