Just bored with what my life's been

Never in my early days would have I imagined I'd be where I am now. I'd be better off not remembering the promise of youth and inexperience, that way I guess I would have no regrets for the dreams and hopes that I didn't realize and experience. I am now officially done with trying to fix myself - I've come to the realization that THAT is the problem. No matter how much progress I make personally, it just seems that I'm nearing the end of my existence on the Earth and still working on improving myself. Sometimes I wish I was simple and common and average. In a way I guess I am that, but what I mean is the uncomplicated simple. If given the choice, would I choose that for myself? I don't know to be honest. How can one really tell for sure what's better? I just want to say that I'm fine just as I am. I don't care to heal the past anymore; I don't care to fix other people's problems anymore; I don't care to be dammed, a sinner, selfish; I don't care that I'm emotionally and intellectually vulnerable. I've realized that the only REAL way to REALLY live is to honor the person that I have become and chose where that will eventually take me. I may die completely wrong, but what other options are there? I mean, really? What is the alternative. These days I care for my happiness, pleasures, developing friendships, and having meaningful relationships in my life.

An aside: I love you JS - thank you.

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  • Its never too late to aim for your goal in life.
    The one way I look at life although unwell most of the time is I am alive and therefore lucky.
    We all aim for something in life-but if that fails try something else.
    I am disappointed over 400 Lyrics I wrote never reached publishing due to costs.
    So I placed them on a free poetry site where others can read them and comment.
    Life can be cruel for us the normal living people.
    But its a lot worst for those poor countries.
    Never give up and if you fail on one thing-try something new.

  • Your extremely bored and extremely self centered and extremely selfish , sounds like you have no ambition or motivation to succeed , nor have a clue how to become a winner . When you take on responsibility and goals you automatic increase your self esteem tremendously , you have no self esteem because you do not want any . you have no idea what real people did in order to succeed and without any help , and you not want to learn

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