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Just bored with what my life's been
Never in my early days would have I imagined I'd be where I am now. I'd be better off not remembering the promise of youth and inexperience, that way I guess I would have no regrets for the dreams and hopes that I didn't realize and experience. I am now officially done with trying to fix myself - I've come to the realization that THAT is the problem. No matter how much progress I make personally, it just seems that I'm nearing the end of my existence on the Earth and still working on improving myself. Sometimes I wish I was simple and common and average. In a way I guess I am that, but what I mean is the uncomplicated simple. If given the choice, would I choose that for myself? I don't know to be honest. How can one really tell for sure what's better? I just want to say that I'm fine just as I am. I don't care to heal the past anymore; I don't care to fix other people's problems anymore; I don't care to be dammed, a sinner, selfish; I don't care that I'm emotionally and intellectually vulnerable. I've realized that the only REAL way to REALLY live is to honor the person that I have become and chose where that will eventually take me. I may die completely wrong, but what other options are there? I mean, really? What is the alternative. These days I care for my happiness, pleasures, developing friendships, and having meaningful relationships in my life.
An aside: I love you JS - thank you.
Put it this way...
I almost NEVER think of my grandfather, or any relatives of that era, or before.
My grandchildren will almost NEVER think of me.
Very few of us leave any sort of lasting legacy.
Live for today, it's the only one we've got.
Its never too late to aim for your goal in life.
The one way I look at life although unwell most of the time is I am alive and therefore lucky.
We all aim for something in life-but if that fails try something else.
I am disappointed over 400 Lyrics I wrote never reached publishing due to costs.
So I placed them on a free poetry site where others can read them and comment.
Life can be cruel for us the normal living people.
But its a lot worst for those poor countries.
Never give up and if you fail on one thing-try something new.
Your extremely bored and extremely self centered and extremely selfish , sounds like you have no ambition or motivation to succeed , nor have a clue how to become a winner . When you take on responsibility and goals you automatic increase your self esteem tremendously , you have no self esteem because you do not want any . you have no idea what real people did in order to succeed and without any help , and you not want to learn