I'm ashamed

Its actually very common fantasy but doing it is not actually worth it unless you like pain and being degraded. Yes i orgasmed at least 8 times but the finish is degrading. Its not a rosy fairytale with attractive guys, foreplay you and ** you in all positions. I learned the hard way.
I had a fantasy and posted on craigslist back in the day. A group of warehouse workers replied and i went along as planned. I am very slim 103 pounds indian student. Had a fantasy of white guys gangbanging me. I agreed to be blindfolded on all fours.
There was no warmup or lubing up, i feel 2 fingers enter me for like 2minutes and i hear one guy say "u ready bro? yeah!! shove it in" and thats what happened they chose a large ** which i have no idea if he was black since i was blindfolded, shove it in. He grunted to get it all the way in, took at least a minute trying. I kept silent thinking this is normal for **. Once his whole ** was in he thrusted non stop all the way in, the bones of my asschicks were hurting after 10mins but the good news was i was getting very wet by this point, guessing natural body protection response. He went on for at least another 30mins before i felt a gush of ** inside me.
The next two guys were much quicker and smaller in size but the one in front this time came in my mouth and i swallowed.
The next five guys were medium size i would say they lasted about 10min, one gave me an ** and they all came inside i was full of ** at this point.
Next: These guys i would say were big to large size, thick ** and they pounded me hard, i was orgasming with every one of them. I was spitroasted and when came the time to ** the rear one would come to the front and unload. This was supposed to be 6 guys but felt like 10 or more because they came around for seconds i assume.

Do it, My husband and I go to a ** ** ocasionaly. once I had 13 guys ** me in one night, most fun we ever had.

Go for it

I'm a man, but I'm into people exploring their fantasies. I think if I were in your shoes, I would love to have someone that I could really trust, to help me set up the perfect situation, covering all the bases...finding healthy, decent looking men of great discretion, who could help you fulfill this fantasy without any harm being done. Either all at once making love to you, or arranging it so one would show up after the other, or even go so far as to set up a scene to make it a perfect event for you, with no regrets.
I wish I could help, but I don't even know where you're at.
If you'd like to explore this possibility with assistance, I'd be glad to help.

Im sure you could find some very discreet BBCs that's down for that. Have fun!! but plan very carefully love...

They've done studies (on college students, who else?) and found that a ** was one of the most common female fantasies. You are not alone.

It's quite common, a few of my friends want to do it or have done it, it's not easy to plan though and you don't want guys who have stage fright :p