I no longer believe in Islam
I'm a born muslim, so they say, and I've had doubts on and off in my life, but it wasn't until I got married and was more independent that I had more space to question and explore my religion...
Reading, researching, educating myself...one thing after another, I became a Quranist (Quran Only muslim, not following the Oral Tradition or believing it to be valid)...but then that just opened up more questions and doubts...
Couple of years later and now I can comfortably say I don't believe in the Quran or Islam anymore. And I'm glad..it's really opened my eyes. I just can't believe in a God that would condemn its' creation to eternal fire, for acting on the free will he gave them in the first place...among other things.
So for now I'm a Deist. I believe in a higher power, most likely I'm into pantheism, but I have no religious affiliation. I don't think I'm interested either. I'm only interested in the truth, whatever that is. So far, I believe in Near Death Experiences and certain things from "Conversations with God" book series. Yeah I know, a bit new age-y..but I think they've got something.
Oh, and I was terrified of leaving islam...I never dreamed I ever would, I was too dedicated. But well, here I am. And I feel alright!
Sucks for my marriage though...he doesn't deserve this. He's muslim.