Why?

I used to be smart and motivated. I was enough to become a doctor. Now I'm in residency and every step of the way makes me feel like a failure. Every evaluation is like an uphill battle. I barely get by. It's only going to get harder from here

I'm terrified that I'm going to slowly become the biggest failure ever and everything around me will fall apart. I wish I had just failed to even reach this point it's ridiculous to fail after the fact. Why can't I stay focused? Why am i no longer motivated?

The more I see myself slipping the less inclined I am to try and dig myself out

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  • I agree, if a patient was sitting in front of you describing this, you would be starting him/her on an ssri like prozac, paxil, etc etc. Time to talk to one of your collegues

  • What would you do if a patient described these symptoms to you? I'm not a doctor but it sounds like a textbook case of depression. Talk to a psychiatrist before you lose the motivation to even make the appointment.

  • I sure wish you well,you have eaten the whole elephant and it will be sad to miss finishing the tail.I feel very unfocused myself,I am barely getting by.I am working on my 3rd master's degree.I used to be good but don't have a decent job and each time I finish,its next to impossible to find a job.Right now,all I have left is 3 classes to graduate and all I want is a B- or better in each class.I got an MBA 3 months ago and in one of the classes I had a C and it was almost impossible to get that,I was so distraught.No grade comes easy for me anymore,I spend weeks not working and barely make it.I took two weeks off this month to write a paper and prepare for finals.By the day the paper was due,I had only two lines written.Professor gave me few more days to write it;I got a 90%.In the final exam the next week,my mind went blank,I turned half the 10 page test question untouched,though I had read enough material to answer all the questions on the test.Maybe I am not who I used to be.I just cant focus.I just wanted to show you that you are not alone.best wishes and do whatever you can to make it.God Bless you.

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