I used to be smart and motivated. I was enough to become a doctor. Now I'm in residency and every step of the way makes me feel like a failure. Every evaluation is like an uphill battle. I barely get by. It's only going to get harder from here
I'm terrified that I'm going to slowly become the biggest failure ever and everything around me will fall apart. I wish I had just failed to even reach this point it's ridiculous to fail after the fact. Why can't I stay focused? Why am i no longer motivated?
The more I see myself slipping the less inclined I am to try and dig myself out