Love of My Life
I miss you! I told you once your name was written into my heart and it will forever be there. You are living the life you are supposed to be living doing the things I have already done. If you had been 10 years older and I 5 years younger it would have been all the difference in the world. It killed me to let you go. I didn't just hurt you baby I hurt too. I hate that I had to make that choice please know that. I only hope someday you will understand why I couldn't make a 22 year old man an instant step-dad to my kids. It wouldn't have been fair to them or you. You have your whole life ahead of you and you will get to experience all the things we talked about and dreamed about with someone your own age. Not a day goes by that I don't think about you and often I cry about how cruel life can be. Our songs play and I feel it, so deeply. As I type tears are pouring down my face. I hope you are happy, I really do or all this pain was for nothing. Remember the song Street Map. I so wish it could have been that way. You believed it and I was a coward. I'll tell you like you told me the first time we said it. I have 3 words I want to say to you. I love you!