Is This Love ?

Ok , so I think I have been in love but not sure so maybe someone can help me out . Going back in time - I was 19 years old I'm a girl and I went to fill out a job appellation and had a the interview after I filled it out as the boss had time to see me , I am waiting for the boss and walks in this woman I would say around 25 years old .
She sits next to me and starts asking me questions . My mind went blank ! My heart started skipping beats and was having feeling I never experience , like .. excitement , alive , after the interview she said she will call me if I am the one . As I am driving home I didn't know what the h*** just happen to me , I was so shock up about it . Next day I got the call it was her she ask me if I like to start work the next day and I said yes !
The next day I met with her and she showed me what my job is and I had butterfly and felt like I just won a jack pot ! I could not stop smiling , I was so happy .
All my life I never felt anything inside and now meeting this woman I felt like someone put a rocket in my heart and when I was around her I was so alive .
When she would ask me if I wanted to go with her on a road trip for work I would say yes ! When I was sitting next to her she reached over and touched my shoulder she was one of those people that like to touch people when they talk and I swear I felt electrically go right threw me !
When she walk in a room my heart would just flip with excitement and when she didn't come to work I missed her like crazy , my whole day was dark and gray .
I never felt like this for a boy this was the only person I felt this spark .
So was I in love ?
Was it l*** ?
The feeling never went away so I don't think it was l*** .
anyways ,
She ended up quitting her job and I completely lost it and had a nerves break down and I was in bed for 4 month , my whole world fell apart when she said she was quitting her job and moving away with her g/f and that next week was her last week working ..
First off I didn't even flipping know she was a lesbian ! And second I could not rap my mind at what she was saying she was leaving in a week and moving out of state ??
My heart broke a million peaces
Till this day I never felt like that towards anyone .

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  • Here is the video - copy and paste - enjoy !
    https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W9ebS85Kfyw

  • There is a song called Sexual by Amber check out the Lyrics
    You can watch the video on youtube just type in
    Amber - Sexual it's a dance song
    Here is the song -
    Don't you know that when you touch me baby that it's torture?
    Brush up against me, I get chills all down my spine

    Don't make this one dimensional
    The way I feel is sexual, the way I feel is sexual
    It can't just be intellectual

    The way I feel is sexual, the way I feel is sexual
    When you're next to me
    When you're next to me

    I confess I watch your mouth move baby when you're speaking
    Study your body when you walk out of the room

    Don't make this one dimensional
    The way I feel is sexual, the way I feel is sexual
    It can't just be intellectual

    The way I feel is sexual, the way I feel is sexual
    When you're next to me
    When you're next to me

    When you're next to me
    When you're next to me

    When you're next to me
    When you're next to me

    When you're next to me
    When you're next to me

  • Thanks song is catchy and she is pretty

  • Honey No that was not love , what you experience is called Stimulus Sensation ,
    in other words physically and mentally aroused.
    This is a perfect example why bing gay is not a choice , you had feeling for someone that you couldn't understand what they were .

  • Thank You I looked it up and I think your right never heard of that before !

  • The truth is that love does not exist in this world. Everything is artificial nowadays.

  • Well that was helpful

  • Do you have a Grade 3 education? It certainly sounds like it by the way this is written.

  • I have a learning disability sorry my writing is written poorly

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