Is This Love ?
Ok , so I think I have been in love but not sure so maybe someone can help me out . Going back in time - I was 19 years old I'm a girl and I went to fill out a job appellation and had a the interview after I filled it out as the boss had time to see me , I am waiting for the boss and walks in this woman I would say around 25 years old .
She sits next to me and starts asking me questions . My mind went blank ! My heart started skipping beats and was having feeling I never experience , like .. excitement , alive , after the interview she said she will call me if I am the one . As I am driving home I didn't know what the h*** just happen to me , I was so shock up about it . Next day I got the call it was her she ask me if I like to start work the next day and I said yes !
The next day I met with her and she showed me what my job is and I had butterfly and felt like I just won a jack pot ! I could not stop smiling , I was so happy .
All my life I never felt anything inside and now meeting this woman I felt like someone put a rocket in my heart and when I was around her I was so alive .
When she would ask me if I wanted to go with her on a road trip for work I would say yes ! When I was sitting next to her she reached over and touched my shoulder she was one of those people that like to touch people when they talk and I swear I felt electrically go right threw me !
When she walk in a room my heart would just flip with excitement and when she didn't come to work I missed her like crazy , my whole day was dark and gray .
I never felt like this for a boy this was the only person I felt this spark .
So was I in love ?
Was it l*** ?
The feeling never went away so I don't think it was l*** .
She ended up quitting her job and I completely lost it and had a nerves break down and I was in bed for 4 month , my whole world fell apart when she said she was quitting her job and moving away with her g/f and that next week was her last week working ..
First off I didn't even flipping know she was a lesbian ! And second I could not rap my mind at what she was saying she was leaving in a week and moving out of state ??
My heart broke a million peaces
Till this day I never felt like that towards anyone .