I want to kill my stepdad.
I hate him so much. I want him to die a slow, painful death. He always finds a f****** way to treat me like s***, makes fun of me, yells at me, and make me be his little f****** slave. I'd be jumping with joy to know his lazy pathetic ass is wiped from this earth. I've never ever felt this way, like wanting to kill someone, but this n**** right here.. He pushed me to the line. I want to stab him endlessly.. Every stab is for every time he has hurt me.. Humiliated me.. Treated me.. Like I am nothing. He acts like he is such a f****** angel, like he has a f****** halo on his head. F****** liar. He plays games, and makes me like the f****** bad kid. I'm f****** 12 years old thinking this s***. He treats my real dad like he aint s***, he's f****** jealous that I love my own dad, and not his stupid ass anymore. I did once love him, because he was the only father figure I had. But I was too young to realize his stupid lies and tricks he pulls. I don't understand why it's always my fault. I'm always the stupid one, the f***** up one. He's "perfect", apparently. He thinks he can get away with this s***. He knows what I go through, he knows how much I hate him. He claims he "loves" me and says I treat him bad. Nobody f****** knows what happens behind closed doors. I can't take this anymore. I want to die. I want him to die. To burn in h***. I want him to lose everything, I want him to feel my pain. For once. I want him to hear my voice, to cringe at every word I speak. His heart to stop.. To feel as much pain as anyone could ever imagine. To go through what he has put me through. This is my confession.