Need to tell somebody
To start it off, I'm always hard & I j******* almost every day of my life multiple times. For instance, waking up, in the middle of the day, and when I go to bed. And I always get hardons in my sleep, really difficult for me to ever sleep at someone else's house. Growing up, I started off rubbing my d*** up against pillows & my bed as fast as possible. Always felt so good. Started j********** when I was about 13 while watching softcore p*** on HBO & Starz, eventually switched to what I could find on the computer until I came across more sites & jacked off even more. When I was going on 16, I started dating online with this blonde with nice t***, a beautiful pink p**** and an amazing perfect-sized round ass. I've always liked little a**** with pretty little holes (like Brea Bennett & Shawna Lenee) and I ALWAYS wish I had a girl so I can bend her over & lick her ass. After awhile in the relationship, we started telling each other what we would do, until she mentioned being really good at sucking (without using her hands), which led up to her telling me everyday on IM, messages and even text messages about guys that f***** her hard and exploded c** all over her face & body. It really made me LOVE hearing & she became my sexual obsession, and I loved how crazy she was about big c**** & especially c**, and the fact that I can call her a c********* & she'd love it. When she told me, I'd always j******* in my underwear cuz I didn't have as much privacy and didn't wanna clean up messes, but she'd make me c** TONS! I was instantly hard again because of her and cummed another big load 5 mins later. Sometimes thinking back to that time when j**********, if we were really together, I'd probably let her give b******* when I wasn't home, maybe get f***** too. They just can't eat her p****, lick her ass, or suck on her b**** cuz that's mine. And on her birthdays, she could make me watch her blow another guy if she wanted. Just something I love thinking about. Everyday I wish I had another person in my life who sucked a lot of d*** and would tell me about it & make me c** all over the place again. The more a girl sucks & gets f*****, the crazier I feel. I also wished that just once, or all the time, that a girl would randomly send me pics of her with c** on her face or a d*** in her mouth. Another main reason I always j*******, is cuz I never had a gf of my own to do things to, or especially just to love & make me happy and take my mind off s**, because that's what I'm about when I'm not hard. Btw, I LOOVE b**** more than anything! And girls that squirt! Right now I have a friend in my life that I'm dying to f*** & suck on her cute/pretty feet. Final thing I wanna say is that I like d*** too. Not bi, I just always preferred it over p**** when I first seen mags cuz a lot of those girls were kinda hairy or had c** coming out of em. To help that, one day around the time I started j**********, I was sitting on the floor doing something in the bedroom, this guy I was hanging out with stood in front of me with a big tent & asked me, then he dropped his pants & sat on the bed and let me touch it for awhile until I wrapped my mouth around it. I didn't taste his c** tho, only time in my life I'd taste it is if I hooked up with one of them cute/pretty tgirls. He had a really nice d*** tho that I still think about sometimes. First few years after that, I was also able to put my own d*** in my mouth. Fav time was after I got done swimming, I went into the bathroom to see if I could do it that day & my d*** felt so good in my mouth and was warm, smooth, but hard. Wish I had more time to myself in that moment to really enjoy it. And, I wished just once through them years that I could have someone stand in front of me again with their pants down, with my heart racing, and let me suck their d*** & enjoy it more since I was older. Plus, just once I wanted them to c** tons on my face. When I'm not watching girls getting f***** in vids, I always watch tgirl vids of Sadie Hawkins (love her d*** the most cuz she's got a big head & I love d**** like that and she c*** a lot without touching), Bee Armitage (nice big d***, would love to be friends with benefits) and I love Bailey Jay (literally a normal sweet girl with a nice d***, would marry her).