I am self conscious. I seem to be
I am self conscious. I seem to be outgoing, but it is a shell. I am in love with someone, or am I? I see her or saw her once a week every week at the same place. She ignores me... it turns me on. She breaks up with he boyfriend and I wait patiently for her to get through it.
She starts dating someone else... I am lost....
This is not the first time this has happened. There was someone else. I loved her too, we got together and it was amazing. It was like a dream. She was the first one I wanted as my own after I broke up with an ex. She ditched me.
Now shes back, I am torn. I want someone who does not want me. I am wanted by someone that I used to want... still want.... well i guess I still want her but I can not trust her.