Consumed by hate
My male colleagues received up to twice the salary raise I got this year. I have been working just as hard and harder than some of them, saved their assets a couple of times, corrected their mistakes and and kept the organization running smoothly. My boss told me he valued me, that I was great for the company and he really appreciated my hard work. Then he told me he needed me to smile more at work, but and gave me the lowest raise of all. Now I'm all consumed by hate over the patriarchy, and all the things that my workplace has done to keep me and non-white friends down while rising the white men up. With this final insult that I'm such a valued employee, but only worth half of the men... I lie awake at night boiling in anger. Thirty years of being oppressed, and it's boiling over now. I want to scream my boss in his face how much I hate him and all other men who are oblivious of how to stomp over women and minorities. I think that makes me the most angry, that he doesn't even know he does it. That he thinks he has valid reasons to expect twice the work from me. That he doesn't know he expects me to dress nicely and smile to be worth more, while he doesn't care what the men wear or if they have bad days. I keep it my secret how I hate the patriarchy with the force of a thousand suns, because if anyone knew I would be belittled, laughed at, cursed at and get death threats. My male friends understands and agrees with my frustration, but they can never understand how deep my hate goes.