I have been snooping through my boyfriends email secretly for the past year that we have been together. He has no idea and does not lock up his email because he trust me completely. I never find anything that proves I cannot trust him. I do see interactions between him and his ex-wife which end up driving me crazy. But they are innocent. I know that if he found out he would break up with me immediately. Every time I do it I feel so ashamed and guilty and swear I'll never do it again. But then I end up doing it again.