I'm sick, and I want to scream
I am living with T.I.As (mini strokes) meaning that at random times, the arteries in my brain thicken and I lose blood for a short period of time. Sometimes I can't talk or move, I'm trapped in my body until it passes. Other times I lose feeling in my face,arms and legs. It's scary as h***. While my doctors are in the process of figuring out how to fix it, I'm stuck. At any moment the condition could turn into a full blown stroke and it could kill me. I'm not saying this for sympathy and honestly I despise the looks of pity from family. What p***** me off is when I feel the need to vent, I'm not allowed. People tell me "life is hard,get over it". They clearly don't understand the seriousness, nor the fear that I'm dealing with. I'm afraid of being in the hospital for another long stay, and leaving my 2 year old to be raised by her grandparents. I'm afraid of not being around to be her mom, just like my mom isn't. I want to scream.