I'm so attracted to older guys, I'm only 19
So.. I really love the thought of f****** and older guy. I also have a boyfriend and he is really good in bed, that's definitely not the thing. We're both the same age and everything's great but I definitely fantasize about older guys way more than him. And when I say older I mean like 30-47. The guy I like right now is 47 and in my family that is sooo so so wrong. I know the age difference is pretty big but there's just something about him and we really connect. He's super on board with everything and even said he would marry me. He doesn't seem to even show a little bit of shame or guilt or wrongness for wanting to be with me. I kind of also feel like I'm just being used because mostly he just talks about getting in my pants. But he sends me texts every morning. Don't get me wrong we do talk about other stuff, but for the most part just sexual stuff. Anyways I wish I could stop feeling so wrong about wanting to f*** him so badly. Is it really that wrong since im technically legal age. It's not illegal but it feels so wrong. Sooo thoughts?