I could not be with my grandma when she died

My grandma was not keeping well. She so wanted to see me but I somehow could not go home to meet her during the holidays. She died a few days ago and I just can't stop feeling guilty that I did not even see her once, while she was sick. I was always a ray of hope for her and I keep thinking that she could probably have lived a little longer if I would have gone to meet her. I was not there when she needed me most and now I will never see her again. This guilt is killing me and I'm not sure what to do.

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  • Forgive yourself for being human. People sometimes make bad decisions or mistakes and it is okay. Surely your grandmother knew that you loved her. If this continues to bother you, go to her grave and talk to her or get therapy. Take care now.

  • You can't go back in time, you can only move forward and grieve your loss. I'm going to go out on a limb and say, it sounds like you and your grandmother had a wonderful relationship. And your Grandmother would most likely understand and wasn't mad, and she definitely would not want you to be feeling this way. It would have been nice for you to see her, but seeing anyone you love when they're sick is difficult. Concentrate on the memories you have of her, the happy moments and your favorite stories. How generous and caring she was, and what made your relationship so special. Because those are the things that are most important. Celebrate her life, not her last moments.

  • Join the club. I did the same thing and I hate myself for it.

  • Pray for her soul and you will find peace.

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