Disorders, advice needed.
Hi, I'm in my second semester of my freshman year of college, and I feel like my life is collapsing on me. I am really stressed and my depression comes and goes randomly.
Lately, I have been extremely insecure about my body and I constantly think of this when around or eating food. I know I am not fat and I know I am athletic, but I just cannot help it. I constantly wish to have an eating disorder or that I could just not eat for a week or two. I know how bad this is and I know that having a disorder like that would be absolutely terrible, but I can't stop thinking about this, no matter what I do.
I really want to know what I should do to make myself feel better about myself and to stop wishing this.
Also I feel like I need a support system, but I'm really scared to tell one of my friends this and I feel like if I talk to anyone I'm gonna break down crying.
If anyone has any advice please please comment. Also please don't lecture me on how bad having an eating disorder would be, I have read so much about them but I still feel the way I do. Also please keep in mind that I am extremely busy so I can't just find time to workout. Thanks everyone.