Why is Breaking Up so hard?
We still haven't done it. but it feels inevitable.
It feels like the right thing to do. But without him I'm all alone. We are each other's only source of love and support as we are on a journey to loving ourselves.
But I feel so toxic for him. I'm jealous, possessive, insecure, **... If he doesn't do what he says when he says he will do it, I can't help but be ** him for it because it makes me lose faith in him which makes him feel like a disappointment.
We barely have time for each other.
What's the point of this? Why is it so hard to end this? We have good times, sure... in small doses. It's easy to have good times when you barely have time for each other. It's poison to suppress these feelings for the benefit of our relationship to keep the good times, but it's even worse to express them and upset him.
Hopefully you will get over Ex soon. Maybe therapy would help you to do so more completely? Be well now.