Want to be **

So I watch a lot of ** and normally I mastrubate to anything that involves rough **. Like ** ** and hair pulling ** slapping **. I also love to ** my ** while watching daddy **. I'm not into ** but I have a thing for older guys and love calling my bf daddy.
I'm 19 and my bf is 30. We live far away so we don't really have ** a lot. Normally it's just phone ** or we Skype each other. But lately ** my ** just doesn't feel enough. Recently I've had this fantasy where multiple guys ** me hard.
I really want to turn my fantasy into a reality but my bf is super jealous and he gets mad when ever I tell him this fantasy. But the thought of a bunch of guys ** me and ** all over me turns me on super bad.