The ex that haunts me
This years been hard, I finally meet the love of my life this year, we have known each other since we were kids in high school but went in and out of contact till recently when I moved home for the summer and she was working with her family business so we meet up, we talked nervously for a few minutes had couple laughs then decided we would go get food, i open the car door and she pulls me in, grabs my face and we have the most passionate kiss that you could ever imagine, needless to say it was steaming and I didnt want it to end. We spent the night together and it was magic, her body is perfection, her smile is heaven and her lips taste so sweet. The reason she haunts me is cause I have all this passion and love for her but were at diffrent stages in our lives, I am looking to start my career look for houses settle down and get a wife, were shes just looking for a fun time and looking to party every saturday night and do drugs. Being at different stages put a strain on out relationship that she broke it off with me, she wanted a clean start away from me and I understand I was a constant reminder that she was a failure even though I never saw her as a failure she just knew she wasnt ready to offer me what I wanted and I knew I couldnt force her so everything just became strained. We went our seperate ways and I always hoped we would pick up were we left off once she was over her phaze but I hve been hearing stories of her hooking up with other people and it has litrally torn me to shreads and I just need advice, cause right now I feel like I could never forgive her for getting with other people but also I feel like I cant live without her.. What do I do?