The ex that haunts me

This years been hard, I finally meet the love of my life this year, we have known each other since we were kids in high school but went in and out of contact till recently when I moved home for the summer and she was working with her family business so we meet up, we talked nervously for a few minutes had couple laughs then decided we would go get food, i open the car door and she pulls me in, grabs my face and we have the most passionate kiss that you could ever imagine, needless to say it was steaming and I didnt want it to end. We spent the night together and it was magic, her body is perfection, her smile is heaven and her lips taste so sweet. The reason she haunts me is cause I have all this passion and love for her but were at diffrent stages in our lives, I am looking to start my career look for houses settle down and get a wife, were shes just looking for a fun time and looking to party every saturday night and do drugs. Being at different stages put a strain on out relationship that she broke it off with me, she wanted a clean start away from me and I understand I was a constant reminder that she was a failure even though I never saw her as a failure she just knew she wasnt ready to offer me what I wanted and I knew I couldnt force her so everything just became strained. We went our seperate ways and I always hoped we would pick up were we left off once she was over her phaze but I hve been hearing stories of her hooking up with other people and it has litrally torn me to shreads and I just need advice, cause right now I feel like I could never forgive her for getting with other people but also I feel like I cant live without her.. What do I do?

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  • I've stood where you stand, almost exactly. I don't know how your life is gonna play out, but i'll tell you how mine did. I had an on-off relationship for the next 8 years that tore me to shreds. I thought mine would outgrow her phase too, but she just got better at it instead. I still think about her from time to time. We had so much chemistry, it was unreal. But she was so bad for me. All my friends couldn't understand why I kept going back. I met my wife a while after I totally cut it off with her. It was the best decision of my life. I am so much better off with my wife than I was with her. Now you'll have to make whatever decision is right for you, but be warned- usually when two people are in different places, there is a reason for it.

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