I have a Sugar Daddy
I am 21 years old. I was raised in a religious family and with strong morals. My parents never had any other partners in their life except one another. My mom still thinks i am a virgin.
In that context i moved 3 years ago in my current city with a bursary at a university here. My parents make together around 600. So no way they can support me here.
I started working in a kitchen, 12 hours a day, 7days a week. Was exploited fully and my boss wanted me to hook up with his younger brother. My first boyfriend and what i thought was the love of my life ended up banging half of the city i lived in. We broke up.
I had guys hit on me left right and center. Here prostitution is legal, a girl i met tried convincing me into it, i resisted. The school year started and my bursary only paid for my school. Worked weekends almlst 24 hours to support myself. Never even bought a shirt for myself.
On my 1 aniversary of being here i went to a bar, called my mom to lie to her once again about my situation.
A guy sits next to me and orders a beer. Gets in a discussion but i wasn't really interested. Offers to buy me a drink, i look at him and realize he is prob around 5-10 years older than my dad. I tell him to buy me a drink (the most expensive cocktail they had). He buys me 6 more over the course of the night. We started chatting and he tells me he is 52 and married with a son that is older than me.
I ask him if he usually chats up girls younger than hos son, he tells me no. At one point he kissed me, i kissed him back.
Next thing i know we are in the back of the cab making out. We went to my place, i shared a room with someone but we was sleeping at her bf's for the week.
We had s**,. He was older, had white hair, a bit of a belly, but i was attracted to him. Don't remember much but he came. Inside of me but luckily my period was due any day then.
The next day i felt him get up and leave. I wanted him to stay, he explains me that his wife comes home soon and can't catch him away like that. He acted really weird.
I thought i will never see him again. Felt dirty and bad, also thought about his wife.
A few days later he calls me.Asks if i am alone. I sheepishly say yes as i was h**** and roomate was away.
He admits to of never been with such a beautiful woman without paying. He brought me roses and a bottle of wine. I downed the bottle of wine and we did it again. This time i gave him great head and he came right away. Was my first time doing that as well, but watched a lot of movies to know fairly well what to do.
He leaves again.
Next week he picks me up, says he has a surprise. He comes in a car worth more than the apt i was living in.
He takes me shopping. I get to try all these clothes i never managed to afford. He enjoys watching me dress and undress. As a thank you i gave him head while coming home. He had spent over 1000 on me just that day. I never had tht before.
Before long he offered to move me into one of his condos. He had a few that he was renting out, of course the rent was free. His only rule was no other men allowed. I had all the clothes i wanted. Went to the spa, had a swimming pool in the complex and most importantly could study for university.
Invited my parents over to see where i live, my dad had a few hunches but i fooled them anyway. They where really happy with the plce i had.
They thought it was for the person that was top of the class. I was average at best. Sometimes he would come often sometimes once a month if he was away.
He helped my parents with money, paid off their debts and i made it seem like i won the lotto for that week. (Bought the numbers after the draw, explained the 4k he gave me as the win)
Fast forward to present day. I finally met his wife. I had to change locks at the apt. so she came as the coowner of the flat. She was really nice! She asked all these questions about my life, what i do and was fascinated with how pretty i am. For a little bit i forgot all about who she was. She was a very pretty woman in her day and took care of herself perfectly. She left and i cried.... i cried a lot at the guilt i felt.
I got a year left of school. Finally met a group of friends my age that i get along with. My secret stays my secret and except for the whole world now to rea, only my best friend knows about it.
Decided to write this as a confession.
My question is what is the unadulterated opinion of the forum members? What is your opinion?
My question is how much of a normal relationship can i have. I got used to