I'm 26 and have a 2 year old. Was thinking of leaving my then boyfriend because he works terrible hours, and is not interested in me at all. I told him this and found out I was pregnant two weeks later. We got married in a court house, no celebration of wedding or baby because we had recently moved to a new state.
My pregnancy was terrible but I tried loving the whole mother thing for as long as I could. But, I just don't. I hate it. I hate every part of it.
I love my son and I'm not mean to him and would never want anything to happen to him. But if I could go back and change my decision to become a mother I would.
My husband works opposite schedule so I'm always alone with my son. All my friends are still single and I don't have any family support.
The depression is becoming unreal. I have no desire to go to one more park or kids museum with my screaming and kicking 2 year old son to stand there by myself. Sitting in my house with my son feels like prison and I'm more depressed on Friday because I know I'll be alone with my son all weekend.
I couldn't feel more guilty about hating being a mother, but I don't see any solution to feeling better. I just don't know that I can take this for 16 more years.
If anyone has any tips, ideas, or can send out positive thoughts for me, I'd greatly appreciate it. ??